Lately I've been hooked on watching the E! network, specifically shows that have countdowns of embarrassing celebrity moments or reality show clips (which are full of washed-up celebs anway). There's something about watching Lil' Kim walking out of a courtroom after receiving a jail sentence that just makes me feel good about myself. I had a similar feeling when Leona Helmsley made a fool of herself when she was going to jail for tax evasion.

There's a nagging feeling inside of me that compels me to act more compassionately when it comes to the misfortune of others. It could be a fear of karma and subsequent "divine retribution" theories that have been surreptitiously implanted in my mind by years of conditioning from my mother. Lately, my self esteem comes from seeing other people feel like shit. Is that wrong? Should I be looking to more positive things to build my foundation of self-worth? How does one begin such a daunting task?